Why are days flying so fast?
I can’t believe it’s been over a month since I posted my last podcast episode. My train of thoughts looks like this “I missed yesterday’s episode.” “Oh no, I can’t do it today.” “Maybe tomorrow” “Promise, tomorrow I’ll record.” “My listeners would understand” “I have to prepare to go back to the Philippines.” “I can’t gather the energy to record.” “What will I record?” “Oh Lord, I’m not faithful in following you in this ministry.” “Lord, I miss my podcast and my listeners.” “Lord, should I continue to do my podcast?”
If you’ve been listening to my podcast, or if you know me personally, you know that I like to do a lot of things. I like to travel, I like to write, I like to do videos, I like to do podcasts, I study a lot of things, and I dream of doing a lot of things. I read, I make art, I workout, I run, I hike.
So much so that when I arrived here in the Philippines, I’m overwhelmed what to do first, or next.
After I cleaned my (sister’s) room, I feel like I’ve been sucked by a blackhole either sleeping all day or staring at the window. Not able to do anything I like to do.
I’m not productive in my (sister’s) room and I’m not productive outside.
To make things worse, I read an old blog of mine that makes me question again all my current decisions now.
I wrote this blog to express this: Here on earth, I can only do so much. I can only express my devotion to God with my limited time, resources, and energy.
In heaven, I can worship Him without any constraint. I can reflect all that He is, having endured the tests here on earth, finally not needing anything anymore.
